Currently Listening Ni�o Rojo By Devendra Banhart owl eyes see related

was there always an option for titles? i can't remember.

Currently Listening Power, Corruption & Lies By New Order see related

i feel so lonesome and inadequate.

i want telephone poles and sunset sky and
the ocean horizon and empty streets and company.

something needs to be done. i just don't know exactly what. i'm afraid of what.

i need to start buying shit for school soon.. school supplies, dorm crap, etc. i wonder how soon i should start packing. i'll just make a list for now.

my computer doesn't have speakers right now, so all is quiet. too quiet.

i can really be a bitch sometimes. i don't function too well. a wrench in the turning wheels.

real. real. reel.

i need a 12x12 picture frame.

i don't have a problem.

denial.

you're losing all your unique qualities.

don't you always wonder who "you" is in people's entries?

tell us. tell us. tell us.

we have couches inside now. yay. i had to vacuum them yesterday. boo.

smiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiile.

how hypnotizing.

i'm so very bored. so i turned to my xanga since no one updates anymore. sad face. i can't go out because my mom's got plans for me. i haven't seen tony and i'm starting to get grumpy. and it's really hot. i lose interest in things too quickly.. i'm already tired of painting when i haven't even started yet. i might go to the job fair at michaels tomorrow, but i don't know if they'd hire me since i'm leaving in less than two months. LESS THAN TWO MONTHS! seems like a long time from now, but i know it's going to go by fast. really fast. oh well. i'm ready for bigger and better things. i guess. whatev.

the house is almost finished.. thank god.. its been well over a month already. i'm so glad there's tile and carpet now. all we need are the baseboards which will be done on tuesday. then my house will be back to normal and there won't be any furniture crowded into the backyard and garage anymore. i'm not satisfied with all the tile and the ugly carpet compared to our previous, but what can i say.. our insurance company sucks and its better than nothing.

almost crashed yesterday due to a roll of carpet in the freeway. by far the worst when it comes to me almost crashing. we're talking swerves and screeches and the smell of rubber here. yes, that scary. thank goodness marina, angie, priscilla, and i are alive. god? we went bowling and to the movies and played DDR at josh's even though we're three years late on that.. but nows the coolest time to be into it anyway so that there aren't a bunch of asians hogging the game up. my farts have been more toxicating than before apparently.. i don't know why. but there's your warning.

things are as good as they're going to get before i leave, so i'm trying my darnest not to complain. but of course i do anyway. the few friends left are cool. the boyfriends cool. the family is fine i guess. so yeah. wop dee doo.

so i'm a bit late on my whole "high school is finally over" blog, but here goes anyway. to be honest, it hasn't hit me yet. i feel like we're on our routine vacation and we'll be back in school july 18th with all the underclassmen and everything will be normal. even though i know i'll be out of here come september. even though i know i won't be seeing several faces ever again. and that's a good thing and bad thing because there were always those faces that i'd see year after year, day after day, and i'd just be tired of seeing them. especially since most of them don't even know my name and i know theirs. however, there will be the few faces i will greatly miss and my only hope is that my relationship with those don't turn into a "christmas card relationship," but i am familiar with reality and the chances of that not happening are slim.

aw, photo fo life. ¢¾

summer has been alright so far. i had so many hopes for this summer. so many expectations. in my mind, theres a picturesque summer with the traditional seasonal job, nights out with friends, spending as much time with the boyfriend, meeting new people, new music, getting more in depth with stenciling, and hopefully start drawing and writing again. eee, i hate making these lists of expectations.. i just set myself up for a downfall, but it's okay, we'll see.

i attended summer orientation at ucsc earlier this week. everyone was really nice and i'm surprised that i made some brief acquaintences. at some points, i feel really fed up with san diego and i want to leave to santa cruz right then and there and start fresh. but i don't really know if i'm ready. i'm more afraid of how my roommate will turn out than how my classes will.

smashing pumpkins are reuniting!! you should be excited.

i went to the fair thursday with tony. it was my first time ever and i had a splendid time. i stuffed myself with funnel cake, rode some rides, watched some of apollo 13, and explored the exhibits.